I've had too much to drink today by Precious

I've had too much to drink today

The haze of smoke blurs the edges of my deepest musing

and leads my mind to wonder

Like a restless traveler

These songs I ruminate on are

the blood curling around my ribs

echoing stories I don’t want to hear

of a beautiful ingenue I once knew

One I feel, I am losing

In the dead of morning I sleep in silence

But I can still feel the hum of the stars

repositioning themselves in my sky

How was I an ingenue at seventeen

Eyes wide open to endless possibilities

and then-hollowed out.

Just smoke and shadows at 23?

Will they still want me??

When the afterglow fades from my skin

when the bruises of time

begin to show their colors in scars

Will I still want me when i’m ancient and listless???

my youth slipping through my fingers

like blood once did

from my veins so many moons ago

fingers that once held the future of the world

coming to rest one last time.

- Precious